| New LJ |
[27 Dec 2005|02:24am] |
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I have a new LJ name, its JerseyGrl_D3... i just got tired of this one
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| Thank You Jesus, your "birthday" is officially over!!!! |
[25 Dec 2005|11:28pm] |
I really fucking hate Christmas now. I swear, it gets worse and worse every single year. Yea its cool getting money and stuff but I can't even enjoy my favorite parts any more. For me, my favorite part of Christmas was spending it with my family, but they were all miserable this year. I went to midnight mass last night with Stevie, my parents sung in the choir. So after mass I went and said hello to my parents friends and one of them told me that I looked "well fed". Stevie and I were hungry as hell by the time we left, we couldn't find anything that was open so we settled for Dunkin Doughnuts. Went to dinner at my aunt and uncle's house, the food was good but my aunt was in a shitty mood from getting everything ready and cooking all day and yelled at me because I said the word "whore" during dessert. My parents are driving me up a wall too. I'm just sick of the entire side of my dad's family excluding my little cousins. They're so fucking conservative and uptight about every single fucking thing. This is definetly the last Christmas that I spend with them, at least for awhile.
On other notes, I got about $180 today, some clothes, i got a really pretty ring and earring set from Stevie. Some gift cards, the usual.... Going shopping with my cousin Di Di tomorrow, should be fun. I think that I'm gonna buy a 6 pack every night for the rest of the week that I'm home. I fly back in one week... it can't come soon enough!
My gpa suucked more than anything from last quarter all cuz my fucking Chemistry class.... if I can't get at least a 2.5 next quarter I'm dropping out, and for good this time.
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| D3 for Life! |
[22 Nov 2005|12:30am] |
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Today we salute you miss Tri Delta sister. Not only do you have the looks, brains, and glamour, but most importantly the class to back it up. Sure, frat boys may talk to other ladies, but don't worry, their only dream is to date a girl from DDD. With your head held high and that delta sparkle in your eye, you are every guy's dream and every girl's envy. You can party like a professional, yet still keep that frat-tastic class. If you're dating a Tridelta raise your hand. If you're not, raise your standards. Its class, not trash; thats you sexy Deltas, and remember: There's only one thing to be... and that's a woman of DDD!
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| I'm Coming Home Tomorrow!! |
[21 Nov 2005|11:53pm] |
I am flying home tomorrow! I'll be arriving at the Philly airport approximately around 9 pm... I am way too damn excited! Its going to be great spending six days with my boyfriend and my parents and my big king size down comforter, and my fluffy kitty cat, and not having to take an elevator, and not having to use public bathrooms, and not having to wear shoes in the shower, and having my own room to myself, and drinking good alcohol cuz i'm getting sick of natty light. So many things that I'm looking forward to going home to. It's going to be amazing.... call if you want to meet up at some point. I'll be up in the Allentown area with Steven Wednesday and Thursday night, but I'll be back in the C-wood area Friday and Saturday. I fly back here Sunday night.. It's funny because there were so many years in my childhood that I used to come out here for Thanksgiving and its the opposite way around now.
In other news I think that I'm going to switch my major... AGAIN... to either journalism or history, i'm taking classes in both next quarter. The weekend was good, was consistently drunk from Thursday night until yesterday. Last night we deltas met our big brothers in Sigma Chi... mine is this guy Austin whose awesome. Then they took us down to Jefferson Hall which is downtown and got us drunk. It's amazing how different the fraternity guys here are compared to how they were at my last school. They're so much more respectful here... I guess its because people in general are raised better in the midwest than the east coast. I'm gonna miss it out here while i'm home, but I can't wait!
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| Update bitches! |
[06 Nov 2005|11:22pm] |
Same old same old... homework, class, sleep, pledging.... the weekend was quite interesting though, Thursday I went to Sigma Chi w/ Katie and got really drunk... Friday night I went to my retreat at tri delt, toilet papered a whole bunch of frat houses it was great! Last night got even more drunk at A E Pi...
Two weeks from thursday until i come home.... there's been drama between some friends of mine and my boyfriend.... i really hope that it all blows over by the time that i come home. I also hope that I don't get into the middle of it somehow, i wasn't there when either situation happened, i'm not taking sides, and i don't really care about it. I don't know who was wrong or who was right so whatever, if you read this don't bring me into it.
On another note Aviva and I are going to be living in a two bedroom apartment at University Park next year... I'm soo excited.. we're each going to have our own room with plenty of closet space, a full kitchen, our own bathroom, and a living room! I'm so ecstatic, you have no idea! We're going to get two cats and we'll have aviva's fishies and froggies and Natalie is going to live on our couch! its gonna effing rule! Well its 11:30 and i have some homework to do since i slept all day.
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| Been a long time |
[22 Oct 2005|02:59am] |
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I really need to update this shit on a regular basis... none of my information is right... o well... anywho been really busy the past few weeks. Steven came to visit last weekend, Melissa came to visit this weekend... love being a part of Delta Delta Delta, love even more that I'm not even slightly hazed... but I am going broke from paying for all the shit... need to find a job, my mom did send me money but just about enough to only cover my dues... going to try and get a position as a desk clerk... Been really homesick lately... can't wait to fly home for thanksgiving... and thats really about all
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[09 Oct 2005|09:48am] |
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I miss Steven soooo much... 5 days is not enough!
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| I'm a sororrity chick! |
[08 Oct 2005|06:42am] |
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Last night I got a bid for Delta Delta Delta, the same sororrity that my mom was in... we had a cookout at the president's house last night and tonight they're getting all us new members drunk.... so excited... you seriously do not understand how grateful i am to be a part of this group, i've seriously wanted this for such a long time.... i guess after all the shit that went wrong last year i can really appreciate all the good things that are happening to me this year
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| yaoza~! |
[29 Sep 2005|02:07am] |
Things are going much much better, my Uncle Hoot took me to the foot doctor on Monday who determined that my foot wasn't broken enough to be casted. So he gave me a sandal thing and i'm walking around just fine! I have to go back in two weeks but I don't think that I'll need to wear the sandal just flat shoes. Heels are out for awhile :(... Things have been somewhat blah this week since I've been doing nothing much besides sleeping and going to class. But I think that the Vicadin's are finally out of my system because I took a 3 hour nap before my night chem lab class and I haven't been sleepy since then. So as of right now things are pretty much back to normal (besides my walking)... everybody's been calling me Gympie, lol... I signed up for Rush which begins on Saturday morning, so no Friday night parties for Laura. I have to say that besides the first night here I haven't been getting drunk or going out all that often. I think I've only been out a total of 3 times in about the past 2 weeks that I've been here, which is pretty damn good compared to last year. I've only missed one class but that was because I had to go to the doctor's. Sucks that I can't sleep, I have a 9 am class in the Med school tomorrow morning and I have to catch the shuttle at like 7:50 to get over there on time... Can't wait til I'm healed. Things with Steven are still going good, I miss him like crazy though. We haven't been able to talk on the phone all that much between both of our schedules, but he's a keeper and I'm not going to do anything to loose him.
Last night I had my first Psychology class... the material seems pretty different from the class that I had at La Salle. One of our first assignments is that we have to write a paper on one of our past failed relationships, and why we see now that it failed. This got me thinking a lot about the last relationship that I was in compared to the relationship that I'm in now. I know that it's not good to compare these types of things (and my relationship now definetly is higher on the scale)... but in a way I hope that this EX of mine does happen to read this entry because these are some things that I have been wanting to say.
Looking back now I realized that I wasted a year of my life with this person... When we were first set up he didn't want anything to even do with me (should have been the first sign)... Then less than a week into our relationship he runs off to a Nudie Bar with some friends (definetly should have dropped him then).... we went on our first offical date to the movies, of which he did not pay for (wish that I saw this gesture screams LOSER) Proceeded to tell me on numerous occasions that I needed to lose weight (making me want to turn myself into his perfect vision of a woman) Covered every inch of his walls with Playmates and refused to take them down after I let him know that they bothered me (which is really just as bad as cheating) Didn't even pay for our Valentine's Day dinner which was at the goddamn Diner.. Didn't give me a present or anything after I graduated from High School... When I left for La Salle made up dumb excuses why he couldn't come visit me, then he finally did after two weeks with his friend and his brother and only stayed for a few hours, couldn't even make the effort to spend the night, then cried like a fucking baby when I didn't want him anymore... Looking back now I don't regret cheating on him, I don't regret not getting back into a relationship with him. I don't know if it was because I thought that I was in love with this person at the time, or because I was younger and stupid, I really believe that it is a combination of both... oh and to top it all off, a little over a week ago I made an attempt to try and make "friendly talk" with this person and he acted like a fucking dickhead to me, like I was the bad guy the whole time and he was the innocent one. But whatever, it's in the past, I've just been needing to get this out for awhile.
But in a way I'm glad that I delt with this relationship because it really makes me appreciate how good Stevie is to me. I have never taken him for grated and I am extremely appreciative to him for everything that he does for me, from our first date at the Crystal Lake Diner where I ordered a Grilled Cheese Sandwich (which i was exstatic he paid for) to the time he bought me a lobster dinner at Red Lobster, to every time he took me out to lunch and dinner (which was about 3 times every week), to his love and support, to the fact that he is planning on moving to Cincinnati to be with me, to the beautiful necklace he bought me, and the best part about my relationship is that every day he tells me that I'm the greatest girlfriend he's ever had, that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world to him, to his cute lil nickname of "cousin it" for me.... (i call him stevie nicks)... I love this boy, and I would love to spend the rest of my life with him...
Now off I go to sleep dreaming of him ;)
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[25 Sep 2005|09:15pm] |
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i broke my foot i'm so mad
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| Life at UC |
[23 Sep 2005|03:52am] |
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Been here almost a week... have to say that I'm adjusting a lot better than I expected... kinda got off to a rough start though... I got way more trashed on Friday night than I would have liked to (which was my first night here) woke up around 11 am to my parents banging on my door and I was still smashed... damn I hate when that happens, and oh yeah I broke my phone... anywho I spent all day Saturday sleeping and shit.... Made some pretty awesome friends on this floor... stayed in on Saturday with Aviva.. Sunday I met Natalie and I went with her and Aviva to the ice rink... she dropped me by a Verizon store on the way back here and I got a new phone. My roomie, DeAndra came Sunday night and I'd have to say that she's an awesome roomie... we share so many of the same qualities. Ended up going out on Monday night with Allie and DeAndra and we went to this frat house in Stratford Heights... the house is brand new, played a few rounds of beer pong... had lots of ugly guys hit on me... but of course I am NOT repeating my mistakes of last year. First day of classes were today, all went pretty well I really like my major so far... I think that I want to become either a Dietian or a Personal Chef... both of which make awesome money. But it's now 4 am and I'm wide awake... and I have my Chemistry class in like 6 hours... its only 50 minutes though which shouldn't be too bad... figured I'd read a lil for my Food Science class and that will put me to sleep... and Oh yea I signed up for Rush Week... other than that I'll prolly be too busy to update in here on a regular basis, but I'm going to try at least once a week. I forgot how much i missed college.
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| The Start of a New Life |
[14 Sep 2005|03:49am] |
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In a little over 24 hours I will be taking the long car ride out to Cincinnati Ohio... I must have to say that my feelings and thoughts are almost completely different than the night before I left for La Salle. I was excited, a tiny bit nervous, but ready to live on my own and party it up. I wasn't scared to be away from my boyfriend at the time, but I am terrified to be away from Steven. It's funny, we've only been together about four months, but I have never felt this way about any other guy before. I know that he is my soulmate.
I sit here on my comfy bed with my fluffy kitty, my boyfriend only a 20 minute car ride away... and those are what I am really going to miss about this area. It sucks, I wish that NJ had more to offer to me, but I know that I made the right choice to go to UC. I just don't understand why Steven came into my life now.... why couldn't he have come into my life 5 years from now so that I don't have to experience the pain of being away from him. I am NOT going to repeat my mistakes from last year... I am a completely different person in both positive and negative ways.... I dress more maturely (positive) I am more outgoing (positive) I smoke now (negative) and I am deeply in love (positive).... I feel completely different now than I did last year which I hope is a good thing. I am not going to be afraid to make friends like I was last year, I just stuck around Becky last year, a friend from high school.
I haven't cried yet, but I know that I will tomorrow. Everytime I look at my boyfriend and my kittie I want to let the tears just flow from my eyes, but I don't want to be sad... this is a positive experience... This will be good for me. I need to go back to school in a new enviornment where nobody knows my past. That is something that Camden County was not able to provide for me.
I know that I am venting about the most random things, but so many thoughts are going through my mind right now. I am flipping through my Ipod, listening to the wide assortment of songs that I have on here. Songs are like a photoalbum in a way... they bring back memories and thoughts of the time when you listened to those songs on a regular basis. I have a few people that I need to go and say goodbye to tomorrow... there were lots of people that I called, left them messages but they never got back to me.... I don't even care anymore. Many friends were lost in the past year, but I keep them in my heart with all the memories and good times. I'm trying to delete the bad ones so that I can store new ones with new friends.
Now it is time to close this chapter of my life and open up a new one. Hopefully, college will work out this time.
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| Aaaah update! |
[31 Aug 2005|03:09am] |
Only about 17 more days until I move to UC... Really enjoyed the past two weeks... Spent a week down in Ocean City with my momma, my second family, and my beau for part of the time. I went down with Steven on Saturday and he stayed until Sunday night. Then he kept telling me that he was going to come down on Friday night but he suprised me by showing up on Thursday night... it was so cute!!! So we spent the night on the boardwalk just the two of us and did rides and all that fun stuff. Then Saturday night we went to Christina's keg party which was lots of fun. We had a lil bit of a blowout but we got it resolved pretty quickly. Joshua and Kate showed up for awhile, that was cool. So until I leave I'm just enjoying my unemployedness, running up my credit cards (I already maxed one out and yes I am damn proud of it, lol) and spending time with my Stevie :). We're going up to A-town this weekend (my last time prolly until December) He's got a three day weekend since its labor day so we're gonna be love bugs this weekend... he he... not to mention that we'll be "rolling around" a bit... I love him so much, I'm definetly packing him in my suitcase and taking him to Ohio with me.
And another thing.. is it just me or does it seem that every boy in this town (and the surrounding area) all seem to have the same traits i.e. stalker/weirdo/don't know how to treat women/pussy bitches?
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| Gawr! |
[11 Aug 2005|08:47am] |
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So I've officially become an Ebay Junkie... wtf? Only 2 more days til I'm up in East Jabumblefuck PA camping out with Steven for his family reunion type deal... Soo effing excited!
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| My Ass is Black and Blue! |
[09 Aug 2005|01:37am] |
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So I went up to Allentown this weekend for the first time in the past month.... Friday night was fun, Saturday wasn't but I'm not getting into that... Today we went to this place called Glenenoca Falls which is in Jim Thorpe, PA.... and there's a 40 foot bridge there over 30 foot deep water that everyone jumps off of.... and I finally worked up the courage to jump off of it.... it was so cool and scary at the same time, but a great rush... except for the fact that I hit my ass on the water really hard now its all black and blue and it hurts to sit, lol... It was definetly worth it though, but I'm never doing it again. So in the past week I got two phone calls that made me really happy... Robin called me twice this week, she's down in Hawaii now in the Navy... I'm going to go down and visit her over Spring Break... Caroline also called me which made me even happier because I was under the impression that she was added to the list of friends who turned against me, but I'm really glad that's not the case. I guess part of growing up is growing away from friends because certain things in life just come along when you're older... boyfriends, college, full time jobs, which really doesn't give you a chance to do things that you could when you were younger... the ones that remain there are the true friends, the ones who push you away were never true friends... So just knowing that Robin and Carp are still there makes me so much happier. Steven brought up a really good point in one of our discussions this weekend, I blame myself for everything, even things that are out of my hands... Take this for instance, my roommate at UC is 17 years old, and doesnt turn 18 until fall or something, so her parents have been calling housing saying that "I'm too old for her" and that "I will be a bad influence on her because I got kicked of of La Salle for drinking".... I try being honest with the girl and this shit blows up in my face... so then these people actually have the nerve to ask me to move out of MY room... its 1/2 mine... Fuck that, If I agree to leave I'm scared that I'll get screwed out of a room. But I still blame myself even though these people know barely anything about me, never met me in person...
WHO THE FUCK DO THEY THINK THEY ARE?
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| Cincy |
[30 Jul 2005|08:19am] |
Monday I flew out to Cincinnatti/Northern Kentucky Airport with my mom. I had orientation for UC on Wednesday but we went out a few days ahead of time because my mom wanted to make sure that this is where I really want to go. I got on campus and I can only describe the feeling as an old comfy shoe that fits your foot perfectly. The campus is gorgeous, the dorms are awesome, the food is banging (not like crappy La Salle B&G food), and everyone that I met was really nice and down to earth. I'm taking Chemistry, Psychology, 3 Nutrition classes... and best of all I have no Friday classes again! Yea I rule... I really hope that I find happiness there, and that I find a good handful of friends. I've been trying to sit back lately and figure out what I did wrong to be on bad terms with a good amount of people that I cared so much about... and when I came to my conclusion I realzied that it wasn't all my fault, it's partially theirs too... People always want to blame someone else for their own faults and problems. But I am ready to close that chapter in my life because I guess they were really never truely my friends to begin with... I am perfectly happy of the person that I am now, I think that I've come a long way mentally and physically since I left La Salle. I've learned a lot and I know where I made my mistakes. There are two sayings that my mom told me never to forget, especially when I leave for UC... 1) "Misery loves company" and 2) "You can't help people who can't help themselves".... I guess that some people can't admit their own faults or try to change them. I have a pattern of becoming close with these types of people and I always end up getting screwed over no matter the circumstance.... and another thing that I've realized, I never did anything intentionally to hurt them even though they blame me for that.... and the two people whom I am referring to, you know who you are if you are reading this. People do forget to call others back, and ending up in the hospital after popping too many pills does not fault you for your friend getting kicked out of school. People need to learn to deal with the consequences of their own actions. But in reality, there was something deeper wrong there... people just like to find things to blame.
Ok I'm done ranting here.... gonna smoke a cig and get back to work
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| Grrrr |
[07 Jul 2005|03:21pm] |
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Why is it whenever I make a friend, and I do them favors, like lots of favors, they end up turning on me and wanting nothing to do with me. Is it me or do I just choose the wrong type of people to surround myself with?
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[29 Jun 2005|03:08am] |
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"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish; Be kind anyway. If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you; Be honest anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway." -Mother Theresa
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| Venting Time |
[28 Jun 2005|12:17am] |
Less than 3 months til I move to Cincinnatti and start my new life. It seriously cannot come soon enough. The only person that I really have here is Steven. Haven't really been able to write in here because I've been extremely tied up with work and the bf. Now I know that I shouldn't revolve my whole life around him but I really don't have any reason to make an attempt to deal with anyone else because they don't make attempts to talk to me either. Lets just say now that I've pretty much sifted all of the bad seeds out of my life. One thing when I get to Cincinnatti is though I am going to be extremely picky with whom I choose to be my friend. Seriously, I have a horrible fucking habit of becoming friends with people whom have mad problems. One of these people decided to declare that "we weren't friends anymore" over a dumb misunderstanding. I didn't even make an attempt to explain the situation or apologize or make excuses because I really don't give two shits anymore. So I agreed because I'm sick of dealing with other people's problems. So I get another phone call from this person explaining why she didnt want to be friends with me... and its like seriously how fucking retarted is that? Like if you don't give a shit anymore then don't give a shit anymore. Stop crying shut the fuck up and move on. So I'm up at Steve's house in Allentown for the weekend because I hate this area and take every opprotunity to leave whenever I can. Around 11 or so after this phone call I started getting a migrane cuz I was drinking all day and the night before so I went upstairs to sleep for awhile. I get woken up around 1am by Steve and Josh sayin that everyone all over fucking South Jersey is calling my phone starting shit over something, then this person threatens shit about me to my boyfriend. So yea I'm done with all of this bullshit...
Definetly have to make a good amount of changes in my life. Alls I'm concerned with now is saving as much money as I can from work, enjoy the time that I have with Steven, and best ways to avoid this shit when I'm at UC. Either way I need to sleep cuz I have work in the AM. Nite all
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[08 May 2005|11:05pm] |
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Don't know what I should do with my life.... go to UC and risk being miserable or stay here and work my ass off to get an apartment.... I know that don't wanna live here in my parents house for much longer... Debating whether I want to continue with school or not
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